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BeCreative, Photos & Musings from Wade
Photos, philosophy and things I find interesting in and about life.
I cried tonight
One tear
I don’t even know why for sure.
I lay in bed after an all to short rest
And there it was
Is it the slow and steady realization of the possibility of lost love
That I have feared in my soul may never be, no matter what my heart feels
or
The desire for a relationship that seems so far away
always just out of reach, so close, but not close enough
In the long run it does not matter
Tears fall
thoughts flash across the pages of my mind
so fast I can not keep up
a never ending litany of images, words, thoughts, fears, wants, desires, goals, objects obtainable, objects unobtainable, more things than I can list here they fly so fast never allowing easy rest always keeping me awake until the crash of exhaustion hits simply because in my mind I am lost and have no direction in my life right now only the never ending stream of thoughts to keep me running far into the night with little escape because comfort is so far away and the emptiness and isolation overwhelms me at times leaving a shell of who and what I know I should and can be.
No rest, only exhaustion
opening the door for the pain
is the pain caused by internal strife
or does it cause it… the chicken or the egg
Help me my friends, I am incomplete
Not what you think
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The crush of LIFE
Weighs heavy on me now
so much stress
so much pressure
The relief I have is needed
the time is all good
and appreciated
and loved
The lady I know
touched me in surprising ways
let the touch go on.
love, pain, lust, longing
a relationship evolves
beyond what I thought
to continue growth
is a constant need for all
all must not be still
to touch and feel now
will keep me dreaming of you
and thus only yours
We all do what we can
to get to where we need to go
Everything flows as it must
The question we all need to ask is…
are we going to go with that flow
or paddle against it.
Life is much easier when we simply flow
But is that really the best path?
My experience is, usually no.
The easy way is just that, too easy.
We need to work on things in life in order to grow and become who we need to be. If we remain stagnant then how do we learn anything, experience new opportunities and find what else there is in life. Meeting challenges is part of what keeps me going. But some challenges are just too much. We need to decide which streams to paddle against. One thing I need to do is evaluate just this. One of my objectives is to let those I am involved with know exactly where I am headed, as it pertains to them. I have been doing so with vigor and true feeling with some, and have just begun with some others. If you are one of those I have opened to then you know what I am talking about. If I talk to you someday and say I want to have a conversation then you know what is coming 
It will never be something bad, but just a clearing of the cobwebs in my head. The release of these stresses is something that I am working on to alleviate my headaches.
Wish me luck, and pray for me.
A sweet song that makes me feel warm for some reason
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Will you count me in?
V1: I’ve been awake for a while now
you’ve got me feelin like a child now
cause every time i see your bubbly face
i get the tinglies in a silly place
C: It starts in my toes
and I crinkle my nose
where ever it goes i always know
that you make me smile
please stay for a while now
just take your time
where ever you go
V2: The rain is fallin on my window pane
but we are hidin in a safer place
under covers stayin dry and warm
you give me feelins that i adore
C: It starts in my toes
makes me crinkle my nose
where ever it goes
i always know
that you make me smile
please stay for a while now
just take your time
where ever you go
B: What am i gonna say
when you make me feel this way
I just……..mmmmmmmmmmm
C: It starts in my toes
makes me crinkle my nose
where ever it goes
i always know
that you make me smile
please stay for a while now
just take your time
where ever you go
V3: I’ve been asleep for a while now
You tucked me in just like a child now
Cause every time you hold me in your arms
I’m comfortable enough to feel your warmth
C: It starts in my soul
And I lose all control
When you kiss my nose
The feelin shows
Cause you make me smile
Baby just take your time now
Holdin me tight
Where ever, where ever, where ever you go
Where ever, where ever, where ever you go…
Symptoms of inner peace
1. Tendency to think and act spontaneously rather than from fear based on past experiences.
2. An unmistaken ability to enjoy each moment.
3. Loss of interest in judging other people.
4. Loss of interest in judging self.
5. Loss in interest in interpreting the action of others.
6. Loss of interest in conflict.
7. Loss of ability to worry (a very serious symptom).
8. Frequent, overwhelming episodes of appreciation.
9. Contented feelings of connectedness with others and nature.
10. Frequent attacks of smiling through the eyes from the heart.
11. Increasing tendency to let things happen rather than make them happen.
12. Increased susceptibility to love extended by others as well as uncontrollable urge to extend it.
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This was given to me by a very wise friend. I don’t know where it originated, but I feel the roots of this are based upon a strong Zen foundation.
Good advice, that is very timely.
Romantic song… in a cheesy kind of way. It just makes me smile 
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Every time you take a sip
In this smoky atmosphere
You press that bottle to your lips
And I wish I was your beer
In the small there of your back
Your jeans are playing peekaboo
I’d like to see the other half of your butterfly tattoo.
Hey that gives me an idea
Let’s get out of this bar
Drive out into the country
And find a place to park.
‘Cause I’d like to see you out in the moonlight
I’d like to kiss you way back in the sticks
I’d like to walk you through a field of wildflowers
And I’d like to check you for ticks.
I know the perfect little path
Out in these woods I used to hunt
Don’t worry babe I’ve got your back
And I’ve also got your front
Now, I’d hate to waste a night like this
I’ll keep you safe you wait and see
The only thing allowed to crawl all over you when we get there is me.
You know every guy in here tonight
Would like to take you home
But I’ve got way more class than them
Babe that ain’t what I want.
‘Cause I’d like to see you out in the moonlight
I’d like to kiss you way back in the sticks
I’d like to walk you through a field of wildflowers
And I’d like to check you for ticks.
You never know where one might be
There’s lots of place that are hard to reach
I gotcha.
I’d like to see you out in the moonlight
I’d like to kiss you baby way back in the sticks
I’d like to walk you through a field of wildflowers
And I’d like to check you for ticks.
I’d sure like to check you for ticks…
A series of thoughts that sprung up over a few days.
The sun enters me
warming my heart and my soul
Let the sunshine in
Emotions guide us
Only you can allow change
Maintain who you are
Always be honest with YOU
Keep your emotions centered
When others control
Who you think you should become
Where your life should be
Little good will manifest
Constantly be true to YOU.
The love of your life
will appear in its due time
live your life fully!
She said life’s a lot to think about sometimes
When you’re living in between the lines
And all the stars they sparkle and shine everyday
He said life’s so hard to move in sometimes
When it feels like I’m towin’ the line
And no one even cares to ask me why I feel this way
I know you feel helpless now and I know you feel alone
That’s the same road, the same road that I am on
He said life’s a lot to think about sometimes
When you keep it all between the lines
Of everything I want and I want to find, one of these days
What you thought was real in life somehow steered you wrong
Now you just keep drivin’ tryin’ to find out where you belong
I know you feel helpless now and I know you feel alone
That’s the same road, that same road that I am on
What you thought was real in life somehow steered you wrong
Now you just keep drivin’ tryin’ to find out where you belong
I know you feel helpless now and I know you feel alone
That’s the same road, that same road that I am on
Too many things on my mind
I just can’t stop the flow of thoughts
from rushing in and out.
I rehash the day, what if, why not
why.
Damn it JB, I know I think too much! but it is part of me.
Who I am is this person with the overactive mind.
When it is going in the right direction it is incredibly useful.
It is slowly turning back in that direction.
When it is flowing where it does not need to go it can be detrimental.
I have been there too much.
Friends and companions
keep me steered in the right direction
for that I thank you all so much.
Even those who have hurt me or done damage
help.
In the long run.
So here I sit,
slowly life improves.
Light begins to shine again.
Each light in my life has been different,
Each person I have, gotten to know, cared for, loved
Ignored, disliked, disdained,
has shown me their light.
And thus become a little part of me.
Some are a big part, their lights shine the brightest
some have almost no effect, about them I care very little.
but all have influenced who… and what… I am.
Who and what am I?
A man who thinks too much about life and its little situations
and influences.
I want to know why, who, how come!
tell me or I will try and figure it out anyway!
and probably just get it wrong
So I ask for help from those wiser than I.
At least wiser in a particular situation.
Or I find someone to spend time with who makes me feel good.
These are the good lights in my life. They sustain me, lift me,
keep me going.
and hurt the most when they are gone
but they are still my lights, I still value and treasure the bit
I have gotten from them.
So what does this have to do with sleep?
the lights in my life play in my mind, flashing behind my
eyelids.
keeping me turned on instead of tuned out
It seems I no longer have a dimmer switch
I go from wide awake to sleep, no in between, no tired
Going from a hundred miles an hour to unconscious in the blink
of an eye.
Only to wake up BEFORE the alarm!
W-T-F is up with that!
SO I try again for ‘to sleep”, knowing that it will be
“or not to sleep”
yet again tonight.
Fine, I will just sleep when I can
and dream of finding(?) the one who will sleep next to me
one day.