The previous entrys were written over the last couple on years. Coming across them was a bit enlightening about my past, and shows me where I need to go.
(added 8-16)
I have been asked a couple of times why post them to the public, I answer why not! I am who I am, the person who was is as much a part of me as the person I am and the person I am growing into. I feel no shame in saying I have dealt with problems in the past, am dealing with some now and definately will in the future. Part of my growth is accepting, adapting, and making use of ALL of my past, good and bad.
for support of this read the comment, Thanks Sarah!